I fondly recall the first post i'd created last week since ages ago. This time I thought it'd be nice to (sort of) continue with that course. I previously talked about self-acceptance as my number one item to cross off my bucket list. And i'd asked myself the question what would be the second one to cross off. I had a strongly unwavering feeling towards being independent.
There are so many things or ways that show we are independent individuals. Suffice to say twenty-something is the right age to be actually (if not completely) independent and become your own boss of the decisions you make in life - be it trivial matters or grave ones.
Looking at the independent people around me got me quite overwhelmed with myself. I question myself daily, "am I not independent enough?" This led me to go back to my roots as a Catholic.
I have been playing with the imagery in my head. What if one day a child asks me how to pray the prayers we all need to pray? How do one pray the Rosary? Questions like that one also brought me back to the time when my godmother asked me if I pray the Rosary myself. No i don't i said to her. and hence now I am on the course of relearning the basics which i have forgotten.
I have always had this inclination to pray the Hail Mary prayer, which led me to do a bit of research regarding Her prayers and searching for verses regarding her life in the Bible. I also began praying Her prayers three times every night, each time with the invocation i found from a Catholic website. I don't know if this can be considered a form of miracle, but the more i keep tabs to pray Her prayer, the more drawn I am to Her. I dare say saying her prayer had given me a lot of faith to hold on, and hope for the best outcome in my future. There's no demand in me that my needs must be answered through my prayers to Her. What's there is only solace to help me cope with life.
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